I DIDN’T KNOW I COULD BE USED TO DESCRIBE THE WEATHER (HERE’S WHY YOU SHOULDN’T)

WHY IT’S RUDE TO USE MENTAL ILLNESS AS AN ADJECTIVE

As a person with Bipolar Disorder I have no control over the weather and the weather can’t be “bipolar”. I was a little hurt to see this on someone’s Twitter page that I respect. The man support’s charities for abused women and isn’t an ignorant person so I had a hard time with this one. Am I really that offended? Not really. But only because I’ve had so much worse said to my face directly.

I wouldn’t want my worse enemy to go through what I have had to go through for most of my life. It has actually gotten worse since my diagnosis. When you are diagnosed you expect help or relief. When 6 years go by and you are now not leaving the house, jumping at any loud noises, your stuttering isn’t even stuttering anymore it’s gibberish or nothing comes out at all, the ache in your chest feels like a hand grenade landed there and thoughts run wild in your head non stop, people have stopped answering your calls and texts, the person you live with can’t hear you and you can’t repeat yourself, you destroyed any chance at a normal life, you are scared no one will be with you in the end, all you think about are the ends that you had to witness, that broke you until you couldn’t be put back together again.

I’m physically ill and can’t find a doctor. All they see is a “crazy” person. Until it’s almost too late. Like last time. Why? Because in the real world I don’t matter. “Oh, you say there’s swelling in your brain? You should talk to your Psychiatrist about that.”. Last time I checked a PSYCHIATRIST is different than a f*cking NEUROLOGIST! And why doesn’t anyone know about Genetic Testing to see what medications would work best for your Mental Illness??? DOCTORS DON’T READ RESEARCH ARTICLES OR MAGAZINES?

Yup, it’s great being Bipolar. No more friends, my family hates talking to me, my brother in law refers to me as “People like you” and doesn’t really want me around my nephews, my twin sister even avoids me, I cry almost everyday and then I have feelings of anger or wanting to disappear. I do nothing, I say nothing, it’s all nothing. But at least I affect the weather.bipolarweather_0

 

 

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AMY SCHUMER AND CRAZY DANGEROUS PEOPLE

I recently watched the movie Trainwreck with Amy Schumer in it. She wasn’t bad in it and I thought it was kind of cute. I had forgotten why it was I cringed upon hearing her name or seeing her face. Then I remembered. It was a press conference she did with her distant cousin Senator Chuck Schumer about gun control.

Let me start by saying that I agree we need a better way to control guns in the United States. There is no reason your average Joe/Jane should have an automatic weapon unless they have credible evidence of an alien invasion or Putin landing in their back yard.

What I do disagree with is the lumping together of “felons, the mentally ill, or other dangerous people.” Statistics REPEATEDLY show that the mentally ill have more violent acts committed against them than anyone. We are NOT ALL THE SAME.

During the press conference Amy Schumer said “Critics say There’s no way to stop crazy people from doing crazy things” but they’re wrong, there is way to stop them. Preventing dangerous people from getting guns is very possible.”

Ms. Schumer continues with “No one wants to live in a country where a Felon, the Mentally Ill, or Other Dangerous people can get their hands on a gun with such ease.”.

So Ms. Schumer links crazy people, the mentally ill and dangerous all together. We are all the same to her no mater what. Should I be able to vote? Should I be able to live around children? What exactly am I allowed to do? If Society had it’s way the entire population of Mentally Ill would be sent to live on a private island where their tax dollars supposedly wouldn’t have to be wasted on them.

Enough is Enough! I am a human being. I am not a monster hiding in a closet. I cry too much, I hate myself, I sometimes get angry. The only person I have ever tried to KILL IS ME!! The stigma, loss of friends and family, hasn’t made it any easier. Throw sobriety on top of that shit storm and it’s a wonder I’m still here. But I am. I also have more empathy and sympathy than Ms. Schumer.

At a Roast for Charlie Sheen she made a cruel joke about Steve O. She said “Sorry for the loss of your friend Ryan Dunn, I know you must have been thinking “It could’ve been me” and we were all thinking “why wasn’t it!”. So she thinks a man dying in a drunk driving accident who was an alcoholic is entertainment. Making jokes about his best friend dying instead who has also struggled with addiction/depression is a way forward for anyone with a Mental Health issue like addiction and depression? She should run for President.

Ms. Schumer was born in 1981. I guess crazy dangerous women age slower. Or the alcohol did some kind of embalming process on my skin. Either way you know what I’m saying.

 

I’m not great at insults because I don’t like to do it. I’m passive aggressive. But this kind of behavior spreads. I don’t need it or want it.mv5bmtq4mjgwntmyov5bml5banbnxkftztgwmtc1mji0nde-_v1_sy1000_cr006311000_al_