SOME POSITIVITY

Living with the negativity of Bipolar Disorder and other health problems, I try to find happiness where I can. It’s usually the smallest of things that make me smile.

When my box arrives from the company Birchbox it’s a little like Christmas. It’s filled with the newest, most expensive, hair, make-up, and perfume samples. You pay $10/month for 1 box per month. The sample sizes are usually large. I’ve had some last up to  6 months. I do have an obsession with products.

I also have an obsession with pens, colored pencils, watches, large statement earrings, flat irons, hair color, obscure boutique shops and gifts, Adult Coloring, Wildlife, and all kinds of subjects that no one else cares about. Example: The History of Russian Prison Tattoos is fascinating. One of my favorite movies is Eastern Promises, I’ve seen it several times. A naked Viggo doesn’t hurt either.

I bring this up because I actually left the house for the first time in more than a week. In case you don’t know, I do not understand how to handle a compliment. I’m working on it. But I was proud of myself this time. Four strangers complimented me on my hair. The color and the cut. I did both. I created the color and the cut. My eyes help. The color of my hair make my eyes appear a more turquoise blue. I still have a hard time accepting praise but when it’s something I’ve created it’s a little easier. My hair is Cherry Cola, the cut is Back to the 90’s, I cut it after I blow dry it then flat iron it so I can see the direction my hair grows. This is helpful because I have a cowlick in the front. lol

Looks like I’ll need all the help I can get. My dad’s visit with the doctor didn’t go well and he’s been lying about having money to pay bills. Ughhh!!! If you can answer this question correctly you win a free reading of my blog. Did my sister answer her phone? lol

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Pictures (New Jewelry & Dutch)

 

 

The photography isn’t my best but I was in the mood to do something and had limited resources. The jewelry is made with Swarovski Crystals and designed by me all of it is hand linked and looped. Which is harder than it looks. lol Dutch is my Puppy who is a huge pain but is at the age where he is ready to be neutered. I want a DNA test done on him because he is unlike any Chihuahua I’ve ever known! I wish there was a younger dog for him to play with. The senior dogs are annoyed by him and it isn’t fair to them that they have to live out their last years being tortured by him. But we are working on it. Keeping him more occupied with toys and exercise and away from them. I just have to breathe and try my best.

And Now Something Fun

We all have different ways of coping with everyday stress and Bipolar Episodes. Some find counseling, group therapy, one on one therapy, yoga, etc., etc., to be helpful. I find keeping my mind occupied helps. I try photography and I make jewelry. These things make me happy. I get lost in the details and the artistry so I don’t have room to think about anything else. For me this helps. It doesn’t mean it’s the right way to deal with things but it’s the way that works for me after trying everything else. I don’t know if it’s healthy or not. I keep getting pressured to go to therapy. Not by my Doctor but my sister. She doesn’t understand how many I’ve been to and how many bad experiences I’ve had. I’ve decided it isn’t my job to convince her. If she can’t accept my decision than too bad. Someday I’ll find the right person, until then it’s photography and jewelry.DSC01268 (2)DSC01270 (3)DSC01271 (3)DSC01275DSC01274DSC01269