I DIDN’T KNOW I COULD BE USED TO DESCRIBE THE WEATHER (HERE’S WHY YOU SHOULDN’T)

WHY IT’S RUDE TO USE MENTAL ILLNESS AS AN ADJECTIVE

As a person with Bipolar Disorder I have no control over the weather and the weather can’t be “bipolar”. I was a little hurt to see this on someone’s Twitter page that I respect. The man support’s charities for abused women and isn’t an ignorant person so I had a hard time with this one. Am I really that offended? Not really. But only because I’ve had so much worse said to my face directly.

I wouldn’t want my worse enemy to go through what I have had to go through for most of my life. It has actually gotten worse since my diagnosis. When you are diagnosed you expect help or relief. When 6 years go by and you are now not leaving the house, jumping at any loud noises, your stuttering isn’t even stuttering anymore it’s gibberish or nothing comes out at all, the ache in your chest feels like a hand grenade landed there and thoughts run wild in your head non stop, people have stopped answering your calls and texts, the person you live with can’t hear you and you can’t repeat yourself, you destroyed any chance at a normal life, you are scared no one will be with you in the end, all you think about are the ends that you had to witness, that broke you until you couldn’t be put back together again.

I’m physically ill and can’t find a doctor. All they see is a “crazy” person. Until it’s almost too late. Like last time. Why? Because in the real world I don’t matter. “Oh, you say there’s swelling in your brain? You should talk to your Psychiatrist about that.”. Last time I checked a PSYCHIATRIST is different than a f*cking NEUROLOGIST! And why doesn’t anyone know about Genetic Testing to see what medications would work best for your Mental Illness??? DOCTORS DON’T READ RESEARCH ARTICLES OR MAGAZINES?

Yup, it’s great being Bipolar. No more friends, my family hates talking to me, my brother in law refers to me as “People like you” and doesn’t really want me around my nephews, my twin sister even avoids me, I cry almost everyday and then I have feelings of anger or wanting to disappear. I do nothing, I say nothing, it’s all nothing. But at least I affect the weather.bipolarweather_0

 

 

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About darie73

I have lived with Bipolar Disorder since my early teens. I have lived with Social Anxiety Disorder for even longer. I self-medicated with alcohol for over 20 years, that's how long it took to get a diagnosis. I'm open and honest about my mental health so hopefully one day the system will change. View all posts by darie73

9 responses to “I DIDN’T KNOW I COULD BE USED TO DESCRIBE THE WEATHER (HERE’S WHY YOU SHOULDN’T)

  • Andi Garcia

    I dislike it when people say that too about others because it’s like..YOU HAVE NO IDEA!!!!..if they truly did they would never think to say that. I’m sorry that people say that and that you’re treated this way.
    Thank you for sharing and opening our eyes more and more.
    Be blessed!!

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    • darie73

      Thank you! Normally I’m not that offended but it was done by someone who should know better. He knew Carrie Fisher and has lost friends to Mental Illness/Drug Addiction. I wanted to ask him if he would say “The weather has been really Robin Williams lately” because that’s what it boils down to. I thought it was funny that my comment never showed up but I didn’t get blocked and he is known for blocking people. I wasn’t rude I just said that as a Bipolar person who respected him it kind of hurt to see him Tweet it. There’s a few things I’ve said to him that haven’t shown up with everyone else’s. But I know I’m not blocked because some get Retweeted. lol Who knows?

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    • Andi Garcia

      I know..those are the ones that hurt the most..people who should know better. And he probably just didn’t approve your comment to show on the feed. And if he ends up blocking you don’t sweat it. His loss because you have valuable insight and your thoughts matter. 😊

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    • darie73

      Thank you I appreciate it. It’s been difficult the last few days. I’ve been out of my medication and my car is snowed in, I couldn’t find a Primary Care Doctor and my sister sent me text that she was unable to “talk” to me for awhile. lol

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    • Andi Garcia

      Snowed in! Where do u live? And I won’t lie and say we haven’t said that to my son about not talking to him. Except with him I’m ok with talking to him dealing with his bipolar but it’s when he’s strung out on meth that I can’t. He sounds too much like his father when his father was addicted to meth. I have to step back for a little bit to regroup because it takes an emotional toll. So maybe your sister has to regroup too but she should say that and not be mean about it.

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    • darie73

      Rhode Island, my sister doesn’t want to deal with me or my dad only what’s in her little bubble.

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    • Andi Garcia

      oh wow! Yea, today we got a snow storm here in Wisconsin. We’ve been lucky this year, this is the first real significant snow fall for us.
      Oh, I see, and I’m sorry about that. :/

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    • darie73

      No problem! Things are a little better today. My Psychiatrist was frustrated with me and suggested I go off my medications. I did. I knew better but did it anyway. It was pretty bad. I started them again last night so hopefully I will start to feel better. Thank you so much for responding when not many do. Not even my family.

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    • Andi Garcia

      well I’m glad you feel better. And I mean if your psychiatrist told you to go off of them, wouldn’t they know you’d be a little off and so they shouldn’t be frustrated with you. And I hope you do feel better soon. And no worries. I am glad to share a little sunshine on your gloomy days. 🙂

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