I’m sorry you had to see me try to destroy myself so many times.
I love you for always being there when I would leave the Hospital.
I’m sorry for all the nights I came home drunk and said hateful things.
I love you for always holding me tight when I finished, stroking my hair, telling me how much you loved me no matter what.
I’m glad you never had a chance to see me at my worse.
I hate that you blamed yourself at the end and we didn’t know it would be the end.
I didn’t get to tell you that none of it was your fault.
I didn’t get to tell you one last time that I love you with all my heart.
You didn’t get to see me become sober and continue to do so.
I’m sorry for being impatient with you and being unable to handle all I should have.
I want you to know there will never be another Mom like you and I’m taking care of Dad.
I miss your hugs because there are none now.
I know you forgive me but it’s harder to forgive myself.
I love you and miss you every single day.